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lets be nothing, i heard it lasts forever.
finding that very faith again.
my life is playing again on reply. if you were to film my life into a movie it will be a damn epic one i dont like whining and whining about how sucky my tennage life is but i dare to say ive been through more shit than anyone there. these teenage years thative to go through its draining the shit out of me. 19 this year? i cant believe im hitting the big 2 soon.i dont wna grow old the thought of it is scary enough. yet on the other hand i wna move away from this teenage trouble years.i need to fucking wake up and stop the procrastination
school started ytd. as usual i dont have the mood for school. i started the year horribly and its still not getting better. do smth about it? i refuse to do anything about it. so what if i do change myself? the world will not spin anti clockwise for me. yes oh yes im blaming the world again for the shits that ive made for myself. all the trust. hope and faith is fading away.
the sleepless nights drive more imagination to think about the future. i dont know what im capable of doing anymore. its all in a mess now. i know people hear me mentioning about continuing in uni and all but there are times where is ask myself whats the point? i dont even know whether i got strength to continue now.
time to start the countless party nights. running away seems like a better alternative.
i cannot imagine im letting 2009 go this way. im ending the year in a real bad way. i dont even wna see your face anymore. i dont want the pain to swell up all over again. ie really got to put an end to all this procrastination.
now. say goodbye. to your dearest louisa. baibai 2009.
year 2009 is finally going to an end. i cant wait. like seriously 2009 was real bad for me. i went through much changes. i hate changes but for once these changes were good. after all the shit that happened i pretty much grew up and a much much better person now. who gives a damn.
okay to simplify things. lets look at all the shit i did this year.
- i disappointed mum biggie time.
- lost her trust. (im still trying to gain it back)
- lost a couple of friends.
- fell in love for the wrong person.
- hated god.
- blamed the entire world for the mistakes ive made.
- messed up my room in less than a week after repacking it.
- never fail to wallk into straight into glass walls.
- grew shorter. goddamn it.
for the neutral things that happened.
- 16 points for olevels.
- got into RP.
- pursuing the diploma for hotel and hospitality management.
happeeeee things?
- met the most awesome bunch of friends in rp. naming the loves from E35Q and E37G.
- earned a few best friends.
- manage to close the gap with my family.
- bonus?
- continued working with the most awesome people ever.
- manage to keep my hair long. :))
lets hope 2010 will have more happeeee things than the negative ones.
shopping spree with cousin today. okay lim bei now damn broke. m.a.c foundation. top. leopard print flats and more nail polish. followed by visiting eddie at xin wang ion (damn i finally found that place). okay eddie if youre reading this PLEASE LOSE WEIGHT!!! OMGGGGG. well looking on the bright side i kinda ended 2010 witha shopping spree which aint that bad afterall. AND billy is coming home. sushiiiiiii? zoooooooo? zirca?
on a darker side. im losing grip.
BACK FROM MY WEEKEND GETAWAY FROM UBIN. its loveeeeeeeeeee. although it rained for like the entire day but still i had my lovely family with me. somehow or rather i totally love the time i have now with them. afterall, after all that has happened they were the ones there for me. okay fuck im tired. blog another day. BAIBAI.
again its the season for giving. not like i care. billy aint in town. so its like WTF. oh well, ive no intentions of celebrating it anyways. the things that i look forward now would be new year, seriously i had a damn sucky year, nothing in 2009 is going well for me, teenage angst perhaps but it still sucks ttm. next would be bonus, IM DAMN BROKE CAN! OMG BOSS PLEASE! I NEED THE DAMN BONUS!
i can just look at these for like a entire afternoon. pretty pretty thingsss. wheeewhee.
the hols are getting real boring. work work and more work but least i have something to do. come on boss give the bonus already!!
mum booked http://www.celestialresort.com/ for this coming weekend. awesome eh. weekend getaway with the family. sun tanning time. i look like paper now. but thank god its only like a weekend. but i want to go bora bora its damn pretty can!
BRING ME THERE PLEASE!
like said whenever i have money i cant decide on what to buy. I NEED TO SHOPPPPP. MEET UP WITH PEEPS. HARASS BILLY BFORE HE FLY OFF TO HK AND TAIWAN AND LEAVE ME ALONE IN SG. STUDY WITH NICOLE. AND DO MY FUCKING HAIR. I SWEAR ITS LIKE FUCK NOW. BUT I CANT DECIDE ON A DAMN COLOUR. OMGGGG.
hols are here. like finally. wait louisa youre not suppose to be happy. daamn i hate the feeling of staying at home and doing nothing. BUT my monehhh is rolling in soon! okay tml in fact. shopping time and pay off my fines.
